by Toni Leake
His head is shaven and dark hair has started growing back like a five o’clock shadow. He is wearing both a black leather jacket and a tough attitude. But his voice is so soft it is barely picked up by the tape recorder.
Paul Gorham is home on a brief leave from active duty in Baghdad. A security guard at Longview, Gorham’s reserve unit was called to active duty last spring. Before he left, Gorham told the Current that he was ready to go. Today, he is edgy and on guard. When asked if he feels his life is in danger in Baghdad, he responded, “If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be long for the world.”
Gorham’s life in Baghdad is both simple and complex. “[We] go out and drive around, do patrols-joint patrols with the local police, the Iraqi police. And hope we don’t get shot at or bombed,” he said.
“The possibility is always there. I’ve seen it happen to others. We’ve been shot at plenty of times. We’re just there to let the Iraqi police handle things; we’re just there for security support. Even [the Iraqi police] take a beating, too. It’s a bunch of chaos. We come home at the end of the day. That’s our one purpose in life-to go out and come home at the end of the day.
“We’ve run into things. I’ve been in a shoot-out. They’re not pretty; they’re not fun. I’ve had rocks thrown at me. You get flipped off a lot.
“You get waved at a lot, too. The majority of the people want us there. They’re glad to have us there. They know life is going to get better. It’s not the majority of the people-it’s that one guy. And that keeps you from being able to trust the majority of the people.
“People don’t understand what it’s like out there,” Gorham said. “It’s unbelievable. I’ve seen temperatures as high as 136 degrees, and that’s just the surface temperature. We’re sitting in a hot humvee, loaded down with body armor that’s an inch thick and Kevlar helmet. You have to drink water. If you don’t drink water, you’re not going to be living. And you can’t drink water at room temperature. It won’t bring your core body temperature down. The water has to be cold.”
The troops buy ice from local kids who sell it on street corner.
“You see the kids on the side of the road selling ice from big blocks about three feet by eight inches by eight inches in size. They’re out all day in the pounding hot sun. They work hard.
“They charge us twice what they charge the Iraqis. [The kids] charge us $2, the Iraqis pay $1.” Gorham stated, laughing. “But I appreciate the service.
“Ice is a commodity over there and its price goes up and down with demand. If the electricity goes out, you pay up to $4 for a little block,” he said.
Ice isn’t the only valuable commodity in Baghdad.
“Oil still makes the world go round. Fuel is a very large commodity,” stated Gorham, adding that a shortage of fuel exists in Baghdad.
“They’ll tie up one lane on a highway or road, dedicated to people waiting all day long in the hot summer sun waiting to get fuel [for their cars],” Gorham said.
There is not only a shortage of cold water and oil, but showers are at a premium as well.
“Baghdad is a filthy place, a lot of dust and pollution. The pollution is miserable in the heat. There is no hot water to take a shower with. I built a shower but it’s only cold water. I get hot water by putting cold water into a jug and letting it warm up in sun and pouring it on me.
“You can’t stay clean even after you take a shower. I keep bunches of baby wipes around. I can take one and wipe my face with it. Five minutes later, I’ll wipe my face again and the wipe will be completely brown.
“[For protection] I wear goggles a lot. I wear sunglasses a lot. Sometimes I wear both,” he said.
“When we get done for the day, we go to the compounds and stay there,” Paul continued, adding he and his friends have stopped eating at a favorite restaurant, for several reasons. It’s become dangerous since the troops are open targets for any snipers in the area. Local kids would approach their vehicles and become targets as well. Gorham said that children do not deter snipers from shooting at the troops.
“I’ve seen dead people, pretty gruesome. You never get used to it. Being shot at- you never get used to it. They say there are no cowards on the battlefield, but if you’re not scared, you’re lying. That’s a lie. Use fear as an ally to tell you things aren’t normal. You’re always on edge.
“When we get done for the day, we go to the compounds and stay there. We eat army chow, which is pretty tasteless. [The military] has hired Iraqi cooks that make kabobs, which are pretty good,” he said. When he and his comrades get tired of Iraqi kabobs and army food, they visit the hotel restaurant where the generals eat.
Entertainment had been non-existent except for a Drew Carey performance at a local hotel for the troops.
“He was hilarious,” Gorham said. “Someone fired a rocket into the hotel that night he stayed till about 3:30 a.m. in the morning. He’ll probably work it into his comedy routine. The rocket didn’t explode, but took a big chunk out of the wall.”
Direct contact with the Iraqi populace is limited. However, Gorham said that when the troops returned to the compound in the evening, they would see local kids motion with their hands to their mouths to show they were hungry.
“I always believe that if I’ve got more food than I need, then I share it,” Gorham said. “If I see families are struggling, I share.”
Gorham was stationed in Kosovo in 2002, but his experience in Baghdad is in sharp contrast to his experience in Kosovo.
“Kosovo was a cake-walk compared to Baghdad. Kosovo was a civil war, but Baghdad was a war where we actually invaded,” he said.
“We were [in Baghdad] for two weeks before we got attacked for the first time”- that’s when we realized it.” He stated that he feels the best plan for Iraq is “for all of us to come home.”
Gorham warns, though, “The war on terror-come on, let’s face it. There really is a war on terror. We got to do something to keep these guys on the run. As much as I hate to say it, we’re probably going to be in this a long time.”
Gorham feels differently now about the United Nations than he did last spring.
“I think that I would like to see the United Nations take a bigger role. I was against that when the war first started. It’s funny what experience will do. I’d like to see things settle down. The United Nations has a potential to be good [for Iraqi peace].”
United Nations involvement could be non-military, he suggested, such as donations of cars and food.
Gorham was not part of the detail that responded to the bombing of the United Nations Headquarters in August 2003.
“I was about a mile away, across the river, when we heard the explosions go off. We knew immediately something was wrong,” he said.
Gorham’s unit was initially assigned to handle riots, but the schedule was turned over to another unit who took over their equipment.
“If you ever been to a riot, you’re not anxious to go again,” he said. He said the replacement unit responded to recent riots and some of their men got hurt.
Gorham returned to Baghdad on Nov. 2, 2003. He is slated to return home on Dec. 25, 2003, but the dates are not definite. On his short leave here in Kansas City, he saw his family, which has expanded to include a new granddaughter, who he saw for the first time.
“She’s five months old and a complete angel,” Gorham said, smiling. “I’m going to spoil her when I get back. I told my wife I wish I knew grandchildren were so much fun. I’d have them first.”
Gorham confesses that he shaved his head for the first time before leaving Baghdad to return home. “My daughter saw me and said, “my mama was kissing another man in the hotel.” The nine-year-old recognizes him now, though.
Gorham has returned to Baghdad with visions of his wife, daughters and granddaughter-and Ogden’s Barbecue in Belton dancing in his mind. He’ll have to tuck those memories away when he begins patrolling the dangerous streets once again.
December 12, 2003
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