In the headlines today, we are bombarded with stories of child molestation and the adults who have come back to tell their stories of being sexually abused as children. We are bombarded with the issue of child molestation in the church and the schools and the cases of celebrity child molestation and statutory rape.
All the media frenzy surrounding these cases and pumping them up in the spotlight has my mind traveling back to my own childhood. At the age of six, I was sexually abused for a three-month period of time while attending a local summer camp here in the city. I covered it up for nearly 13 years, as I fell deeper and deeper into denial about what had happened to me. Child molestation is not a rare occurrence, but as a child not knowing the commonality of it, I felt as though I was alone and no one would understand my pain.
According to the U.S. Justice Department’s Internet Crimes Against Children Task Force, are an estimated 3,000 cases of child molestation reported yearly. The fact that this many children are molested each year in America is disgusting enough that every time I think about it my stomach turns.
When referring to child molesters, we typically think of a middle-aged male who knows the victim on a very personal level. This, however, was not true in my case. A female day care worker who saw her methods of abuse as a way to control me molested me. I recall being in trouble and she would call me over to her. That is when the moments of horror began for me. I don’t believe I was the only one who suffered that summer, but as I reflect back on the horror of it, I can only pray that I was alone. To be a child stripped of innocence through no choice of yours is a nightmare I wouldn’t wish upon my worst of all enemies.
Though my abuse occurred when I was six, I was not affected by the incident until my junior and senior year in high school. I remember falling into depression and suicidal thoughts and being plagued by nightmares, as well as turning on some of my friends and family. I talked to my youth minister, who in turned connected me with a Christian grief counselor. This did so much to relieve the stress that I was feeling.
Living the life I have lived and the pain that I have dealt with leaves me wondering what type of person would do this to children and leave them mentally wounded.
Child molestation is a very serious mental problem that leaves the victims emotionally branded and feeling dirty and unwanted. It is a very painful experience that we the victims must carry with us forever.
It irritates me to hear people say, you need to get over it and move on with your life. Explain something to me. How am I supposed to just pick up and move on with my life when I was stripped of my only innocence and left feeling ashamed, as though I had done something wrong?
I have finally learned to deal with the abuse and forgive the one who caused it. Though I forgive, I shall never forget and I believe anyone who even thinks of molesting a child should be imprisoned for life and burned alive.










December 12, 2003
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